Transition

Transition. I have a love/hate relationship with this word. I love it because it means something new will be happening, I hate it because it means something new will be happening. I have found that nothing in my life has really turned out exactly how I planned it. Once I grasped this concept It still leaves me with no answers shockingly. A "now what" if you will. But I have found some truths that I can find consistency in. Worship, Waiting and Work as Henri Nouwen calls it. I have adapted it for myself and what it means in my life when everything seems to be changing all around me, I can't stop the change but I can learn to be the most consistent faithful person even in the midst of change. Worship-The utmost goal and desire, what I was created for. I can never lose site of this. This holds things all together. And I find my most sincere worship is the worship that comes from the heart. In the time when I don't have the answers. When I learn to let all my defenses down and just be me. Its amazing how much healing comes with that, and surprisingly how much he wants that from me too. He disarms me. Secondly, Waiting-This word seems to sum up my life quite well these days. Sometimes the waiting is good, precious really. But sometimes it is a huge black hole that I stare into and see no end in sight. But nonetheless it is there. And it has attached itself to me whether I like it or not. But I have found that the more I worship the more I can wait. Thirdly, Work-This is the in and out of every day life. Doing those things you really never feel like doing but have to. It's the struggle and the reward. It's the vocation now, and the vocation that I don't even know where it is but trying to get too. That He sees that and has an answer. That I don't give up because everything happened differently. What I have to believe is that He sees my and knows me in my worship. He sees me and knows me in my waiting, and He sees me and knows me in my work. So all these transitions can happen, they can come loudly or quietly it doesn't make a difference Because i'm still here. With Him. When I can really hold onto this and believe his good work is being "worked" out in me, It changes everything.

Yeah your making me a mountain that can never be shaken. Your making me a mountain that can never be moved. -Kristine Mueller